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Mood: Dull...
Reading: Cengage Education Website
Watching: Old CSI: New York Episodes
Playing: Boogie DS
Eating: Smarties
Drinking: Water

No, for real guys... I wanted to get back to having a proper journal again... I wanna harass you with the really boring its and bits from my life. This means two things - I'll be updating LESS often, and it when I do update, it will be in :greater amounts. I get the feeling I've been annoying people lately. That I've made someone angry, or stuck my nose in somewhere that it doesn't belong. I don't know why, but I just can't shake it.

I feel so sick and so tired all of the time, and just run into the ground. I don't know WHAT to do to cheer myself up, and I feel like I'm faking when I give people my candy apple smile and tell them I'm okay.

Dad was watching this report tonight on "America's Most Hated Family". You know the guys, surely... The ones who picketted the funerals of soldiers, and Heath, and reckon everyone out there who doesn't live the way they do in "the purity of the bible" or whatever is a fag? I... don't understand it. I don't think I particularly want to. They're a tad obsessive... It seems to me that when the interviewer, Louis Theroux, was it?, nailed something on the head, they stared incredulously at him, then just confronted him with some outrageous claim. I just... don't understand it. Event the things I obsess over, I can conceed and see someone else's point of view...

Something good is happening, though. I'm going out on Sunday 25th to a picnic in Melbourne with some peeps from Manifest. I hope it will be fun. For anyone who knows me, going out like that is a big thing. I keep to myself and have a very limited social activity.

It's not that I don't like making friends, it's just that I've come from such a small social group where everything HAS to be as it appears and when I don't appear to be what I am and have interests that don't conform to what everyone believes is the norm, and am used to being abused for liking the things that I do. I mean, god, forget mentioning you're gay, let alone using the words "furry", "anime", "manga", "Japan" or "lolita".

I think that I've mentioned it once or twice before that I've come from some pretty aggressive environments, and it honestly still shocks me that, for purposes other than a convention, people cosplay outside of the... I don't know... Safety of the likes of a convention.

It's bloody awesome. I really can't wait to get up there and have some fun~! I'm going to take my camera...

I hope they don't mind~!

I also have to cook stuff to take... Like, cupcakes, cookies and scones! Oh! And pizza scrolls! I wanna take pizza scrolls to them~!